A precognitive experience.

A search for answers.

28 years ago I unconsciously set an intention to understand what happened. I never expected the magnitude of what that actually meant at the time.

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It is not so much about what happens to you in your life, but how you choose to move through it. This is important, because your spirit, your Life Force Energy, is counting on you to deepen your inner connection so that you can fully embody yourself and begin to live the extraordinary life you are truly meant to live.

An integral part of who you are, your Life Force Energy holds the blueprint for your true, authentic essence. It is the You that is calm, patient and kind. The You that is aware of your needs. It always has your back, never steers you wrong, gives you feeling in your body, and never, ever abandons you. It is You at your truest form.

The integrity of the flow of your Life Force Energy is reflected in your current inner state, and in your outer life, it can be seen in your health and vitality, in the issues and experiences you have and also in the company you keep. It’s a measure of how much you have lived with love.

Everything has an affect on its flow, not only your beliefs, actions, interactions, thoughts, emotions and words, but also resistance, and the way in which you process incoming information from people and situations that you encounter in your everyday life. The more willing you are to embrace yourself and your feelings about things, to trust your gut, your inner wisdom and knowing, what you hold dear, what is right for you, and the more you begin to act based on that knowing, the less inner regret and anger towards yourself will be accumulated, making more room for you to confidently be your true self and invite more joy into your life.

Simply put, how you live your life, what you believe of yourself, affects every level of your being, physically, emotionally, mentally AND energetically.

If you are consistently running ragged, under valuing yourself, avoid taking an honest look at where you have short changed yourself by always putting others first, chances are there is congestion or a distortion in your energy field. Over time, if left unmanaged, feeding on energy created by conflict internally and externally, it can accumulate and expand, becoming a subtle energy in itself and substantially contribute to a lack of well-being, anxiety, depression and disconnection.

In this case, the gap between who you truly are and the self you project each day can grow denser and stronger and can be seen at all levels of your being. Often causing difficulties and/or conflict at some level, making it not impossible, but harder to connect with yourself and begin to engage in your daily life in a different way, with love and kindness, which will facilitate a better flow of life force within you.

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“To thine own self be true.”

It’s not easy to look at yourself, your fears and your resistance to change. How do I impose stress on myself, do I accept love and even give love to myself on a daily basis? And, how is that affecting me physically, mentally, emotionally and my ability to cultivate that kind of life that I am meant to have? There was a time when I was so disillusioned with myself and my life, that it was difficult to function. I almost gave up on my practice. Of course, I’m glad that I didn’t, but many times I was on the brink.

During that time, a psychologist I had been seeing told me, after venting for many sessions on a particular relationship, “Bev you having been talking about this a lot, perhaps you need to love more”. Wow, was I annoyed after that! How could I possibly love more?

Months passed. I remember it was a Tuesday. I was driving along, about to entering a highway on-ramp and it suddenly occurred to me: I didn’t need to love more, I needed to love differently.

Not an easy task for sure. How willing was I to go within and ask myself the hard questions and to begin to truly accept myself and others for who they are? How close did I stay to my values, who I shared my time with and why and most importantly, whether I strove to live my life with love, respect and accountability. These are the questions I ask regularly to deepen my understanding and relationship within myself, to bring healing to the part of me that was buried beneath many years of beliefs that simply didn’t hold true.

This is lifelong learning, but what I know for sure is that it is of the utmost importance that we deepen our understanding and relationship with our inner selves. To be true to oneself is to be more aligned, less stressed and more likely to make conscious choices within our daily lives that are balanced. In tune with our values, schedules and responsibilities, we can weather the most challenging people and circumstances. We become kinder, more patient and bring more compassion and forgiveness to others and ourselves.

If I hadn’t made the decision to really investigate and confront my inner world I would still be venting. Instead, I’m living out the mantra, “To thine own to be true,” not just uttering it.

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For a deeper dive into how my journey began click here.